Keeping the Vision Alive When Jumping in Head First
I was ready to go. I’d stayed too long in a borrowed home, but finding requires seeking. And while dreams flitted past, the concrete realities of what to seek continued to elude me. I just knew it was time to go. With everything I had to stay for, it was time to leave.
Some individuals seem to have a perfectly crystallized and grounded vision of what they are setting out to seek, but that wasn’t the case for me at the time. A declaration that I was leaving soon, a safety net prepared and forcing functions in place, all I had was a commitment to leave. The voyage and destination were cloaked in darkness. Walking forward in pitch black, I kept taking steps, maintaining some semblance of direction by running my fingertips on the surfaces of the walls. Soon, I felt swallowed by darkness.
I jumped without understanding where to look for a solid landing.
At this point in most narratives, a miraculous stride of faith and trust takes over, but that’s just not how it feels at the time. The reality is that you are keeping a thread of something alive with the mundane products of useless madness. The jump gets its spring from vision more than reality, and that vision requires dedicated nurturing. And for the visual folks, we need to see and feel the idea, inspiration or vision in order to recognize its grounded form.
Here are three simple ways to keep the vision alive once you've committed to a jump:
Vision boards. In my hands, vision boards are built to recognize and ingrain a vision in my mind's eye. While I wouldn’t place both feet firmly in the power of manifestation, I do believe that sometimes we can recognize what we are looking for in imagery before we can express it in words. Grab either a ton of magazines and physically cut-and-paste a collage, or hit Pinterest. With an apartment lease ending and little idea of where I want to go, I sat down on Pinterest and just started pinning a board of mountains and oceans. I hadn’t focused my job search on the west coast, but that’s where I ended up.
Mirror messages. Simple. Lipstick you don’t wear anymore and a mirror you use all the time come together to create a daily reminder of what you are jumping for or towards. Silly as it is, can’t say this method has failed me often. This is a mirror message my roommate wrote me to remind me why I was trying my hand at freelance work.
What it looks like. This is more abstract, highly personal and may ring as slightly more out there. I’ve found that seeing something, getting the full sensation by seeing it in front of you (even when it’s not real) is a powerful motivator. It grounds the jump into an achievable and realistic notion. In essence, I've found that to fully feel and keep close a sense of what my instinct is driving me towards can be leveraged to recapture my faith while I'm free falling and looking for a place to land. When I recognize an individual or experience in my day-to-day that matches the sensation of that instinct to jump, I capture it in my memory. These moments can also come unconsciously in dreams or consciously through deep meditations. While my boyfriend and I were contemplating a move, I did a deep relaxation meditation and
These jumps are not be overused or under appreciated. Every jump is so singular that an attempt to judge someone else's experience will only lead to foolish conclusions. The complexity and confusion of jumping head first will be as it's meant to be in each individual experience.
So, to anyone who is in a place to jump, know that many of us stuck the landing and even when we didn’t, we still did. Trust us, you will get the answer you need instead of the one you thought you were seeking – something you likely won't regret.